Sunday, October 23, 2011
Missing You
Luke, today I missed you. I just wanted to hold you in my arms. I long for you. I know your mine forever, and for that I am grateful, but today I just wanted to be with you. I wanted to nuzzle up next to you, hold you close to me, and smell that sweet baby smell. At church, seeing the other babies, especially ones your age, just made me miss you more. I'm sure people that don't know me wonder why I stare. I just can't help it. I love you so much and feel so incomplete without you here. I know, I know, in the whole scheme of things life is short and I'll be with you again one day, but today it hurt. Waiting can be hard. I can't wait to hold you in my arms, kiss you, and tell you how much I love you. I'll smoother you in kisses, you'll giggle, and it will be wonderful ...one day. In the meantime, be a good boy and don't get into any angel trouble. I love you. Love, your mommy.
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This is so precious. And you are amazing. I've been reading "Daughters in my Kingdom" and there are so many stories of women who lost their babies - I always think of you and am so grateful for the Plan of Salvation that lets us know we will see our loved ones again. But the time between now and then can be hard - I love you and pray for you. Loves.
ReplyDeleteLove this post. I often stare at babies at church too. Many times I ask to hold them. I think sometimes the mothers are weirded out that I want to always touch their babies, but I am sure they understand. We just long for our little ones. I am sorry today was hard. Sending love your way.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful! He is blessed to have such wonderful parents. I know it must be so painful and I'm so sorry for that. I know you have a lot of faith, though, too. Thanks for posting this honest, heartfelt post.
ReplyDeleteJenni, I think of those women that had to bury their children in the plains ... I can't imagine how hard it would be to leave my baby in the middle of no where. I am thankful he has a safe resting place.
ReplyDeleteThanks Kim. Honesty is all I've got...